It's been awhile...

...since I've actually met someone who had such a profound effect on me. I honestly thought I was beyond this sort of 'school girl' behaviour. And yet, at the same time, I'm relieved. I still have the capability to feel this passionately, this irrationally. I am not stone. And clearly, it has re-awoken the poet in me...

Crush

It’s like catching a wave.
When the ocean reaches up
Grasps you with a power that pulls you
Not under
Just into her power
Locked in a protected place
Then instantaneously propels you forward
With such control, her control
Natural
Primal
Crushing
A weight that pulls and pushes you
That contradictory sensation
Extreme exhilaration
Unmitigated terror.
Control is all around you
But you don’t hold the reins.
You can feel it
Fluttering inside every bone, muscle, organ, thought
Tingling outside like a burning aura that is intangible yet a part of you.
The only control you have
Over this power
Is knowing that you have no control
Letting go
And just riding it out
Heady, giddy, nauseated
Until it either vindictively crushes you in the turbulent foam
Or benevolently places you on the warmth of the sand.

It’s not rational.
This feeling
That pulls and pushes at you like the embrace of an ocean wave.
Where you have no power but must just ride it out.
It’s chemical
Alchemical
Magical
Transformative
Terrifying
Crushing.